My younger son had an accident while he was drunk and driving. He almost died. It would have been better if he had died. His backbone is severely damaged; he will stay in bed for the rest of his life. My older son acted irresponsibly and wasted time during the privileged days of his father, and became a drug-addict. One day we’re fine, the next two we fight. He squandered all that wealth in five or six years. He made my younger son a drug-addict as well. His mother could not bear the sufferings of this world and died of heart disease. I suffered a lot when I was a child. I encountered many difficulties. I was raised as an upright man, but the wealth I obtained was of no use to me.

I stole and fed my children on what is forbidden and unlawful. The improper deeds we engaged in have their effects now.

My two sons were my sharp eyes; they were my hands and feet. I would not complain if I was blinded at my discretion by a physician. It would be my fair share to live as a creature with feet and hands cut off. If only death could find me and take my soul away. Unfortunately this is not so; I can neither live nor die in this world. This is how I ruined my future and did the same to both of my sons too. I am the only one to be blamed. I fed my children on what is impermissible and unlawful. Magtymguly was right to say, “You will give your account of your proper deeds, but you will definitely be punished for the improper, impermissible and unlawful.” Now I have received the punishment for such...